I can see that I may have set myself up for a heart break.
Thomas was working Sunday. I am off Sundays. I stopped by to see my department manager
about adding a job code so I can get more hours. He recommended I talk to the
managers who oversee the front end. I think Thomas was in a bad mood. I swear
he had a small goatee under his lip. I spoke to Miss Barbara yesterday and she
said it wasn’t his twin because his twin does not do that kind of work. I don’t
know. It all threw me off a bit.
Sometimes when he is in a bad mood, it hurts my
heart. I feel him emotionally. I feel that I may have set myself up to break my
own heart. I allowed myself to become emotional over Thomas. I have a hard time
handling these new emotional changes. I don’t understand them yet. Maybe I
never will. I don’t like being on an emotional roller coaster at all. I’ve
never felt so overthrown by emotion over a guy before. It is scary and unknown.
I don’t want to make him uncomfortable; I want to get to know him and find out
if we can work. I will do what it takes even if I have to find another job.
Mom had a rough weekend. She had three days off that
were wrecked by a severe toothache. She went to the dentist yesterday to have
it extracted. I left my keys in her car on Sunday. I was looking for a shirt
she thought was in the car. Of course I did not realize I didn’t have keys
until 30 minutes before I was scheduled to go to work. Mom had to turn around
from work to give me keys. I was over an hour late for work. Shitty Monday.
I was in another department all day. I go back to my
department and find 2 buggies of stuff that wasn’t worked. I get frustrated
because there was an item that needed to be locked up that was sitting out for
someone to steal. Luckily one of the third shift personnel offered to put up
the items in my department. The buggy I had full of stuff I could not finish
because my shift was up. I wonder what will happen today because I wasn’t able
to do everything I needed to do. Oh, I will be speaking my mind about the
buggies full of items that were supposed to be worked and weren’t!
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