Today has been rough for me. Too much anxiety and wanting to cry most of the day. My eye candy, Thomas, apparently was having a tough day as well.
The new guy, Mike, needed a Playstation 4 for
a customer. I told him this would be a teachable moment. I asked Thomas if he
had the key to the locked area of our stock room. He opened it up. I was
explaining to Mike that we bin and pick
to maintain our inventory control. Thomas told me good job as he added what I
had missed. Damn, so yummy! Still crushing over him, he made it even better
today! Thank you!
Anyway, Dee
had me work on adding DVDs to the new fixture. I was fine until I finished it. I
was lost without too much to do. Dee just rubs me the wrong way. I am at wits
end. The whole department is being remodeled and re adjusted. This means that I
am at a loss as to where everything is at. My OCD is in overdrive because
everything has been uprooted. My routine and consistency has to be changed.
I told
Angela I had OCD, Panic Disorder, and Agoraphobia. I felt better after I
spilled it out to someone. I am beginning to get claustrophobia. Maybe it’s
everyone who is working at the same time that is making my agoraphobia worse. I
have been set in my own way working in the department. Everything has turned my
insides outward!
I want so
bad to tell my managers that I have issues. I am so scared that I will be
rejected, look down on, and be too pitiful for work. I am screwed! At least I can hang on to what little things that have made
me happy.
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