Wednesday, June 25, 2014

REJECTION, MAYBE


I had the courage to ask Thomas a hypothetical question. Which basically went “would you feel uncomfortable if you knew someone had a crush on you”. He said that he couldn’t talk to associates like that. Or some version thereof. He asked if that answered my question. I said it wasn’t what I wanted to hear and walked off.

I still have a crush on him. I don’t care who knows now. I asked Ms. Barbara about Thomas. She said I needed to talk to the other Barbara. The other Barbara went to school with him. I asked her if he had a twin. She said that Thomas told her not identical because he is a little bit shorter than he is. That really doesn’t matter. It’s all about genetics. They still can be identical twins if one fertilized egg split into two.

She kinda figured I had a crush on him, she asked me if I did. I said I do. She said to tell him. I said that I try, but I just can’t quite muster up the courage to tell him.

I am still so damn shy. My heart flutters, my cheeks are red, I just want to cry, I get anxious, and sometimes giddy. I have never felt like this towards a guy before.
EVER!  

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