Lack of friendship on my part

My best friend invited me to her wedding on Halloween. I was three and a half hours late! I mixed up the times. I can't believe that I was that blind sided by my own stupidity by not checking the invitation for accurate times! My mom and I planned to dress up in costumes. We had our costumes on all day to make sure we weren't late. My friend anticipated our presence. We had been planning this for a month! My friend needed an RSVP for everyone so she could make arrangements for food and supplies! I cried in the car after we spent hours looking for her house to drop off her gifts as well as see her for a few moments. I got her phone number from her father and talked to her for a few minutes. I explained why I wasn't there as anticipated. She was cleaning up after the reception. I told her we'd meet up later and I would talk to her later.

A first wedding is so special and very important. When you are invited to a wedding, it is a privilege and an honor. I feel as if I had let her down by being a no-show. I did not want her to feel as if I drop-kicked her to the curb. I missed a special event in my best friend's life. That is something I won't have in my memory. This would be my first wedding attendance. I am still upset thinking about it, let alone posting it so the world would know how shitty I had been.

Life will go on. I hope that she can forgive me for being a hole of an ass!