My two wonderful people whom I have worked with are floating away. One is headed south; a cloud hangs over the other. Of course, she kept us three close. Now, not so much a close fit anymore. These two are my anchor. I can bounce work things and my heart off of them without a blink.
My life has always been about changes. Living arrangements. Relationships. Schools. Whatever it was, I rolled with it. I adapted. I'm a chameleon of life. Whatever life brings to me.
This is one of those times when I want to beg life not to make this
change. Panic sets in. Panic and I go way back like an old friend. It's
an old wound that always hurts when it rains.
I think my gut was telling me to hold on to the roller coaster ride, not to take the job I'm leaving.
As I get older, I am well aware of the changes within me. Biologically. Spiritually. Emotionally. I am no closer to having kids. May never will. That wound will never heal. It is what I want deep down. It's my nature to be a loving mother. To be able to birth children. How can I do that when I can't even find any guys to hang out with.
My life seems to be back on track to some zen place. I have to work harder to find that place. To work on what ails me and heal these wounds. I need to allow the scars to heal completely.
Thoughts?!?!?!
I think my gut was telling me to hold on to the roller coaster ride, not to take the job I'm leaving.
As I get older, I am well aware of the changes within me. Biologically. Spiritually. Emotionally. I am no closer to having kids. May never will. That wound will never heal. It is what I want deep down. It's my nature to be a loving mother. To be able to birth children. How can I do that when I can't even find any guys to hang out with.
My life seems to be back on track to some zen place. I have to work harder to find that place. To work on what ails me and heal these wounds. I need to allow the scars to heal completely.
Thoughts?!?!?!
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