Feeling under the weather

It has been almost a month since I posted. A lot and a little has been happening.

I've been working 35 to 40 hours a week. I've also been going to the gym to try to lose weight. I have not been to the gym in over a week. I've lost my motivation. I'm trying to get it back.

Lately, I've been feeling a bit under the weather. A lot of muscular aches, tiredness, sleepiness (lack of sleep), fatigue, and lack of memory - brain usage. It has eased up this week a bit.

There is still a lot of drama at work. All the drama is very draining. I feel drained when I'm at work. It's tiring dealing with so much shit and no way to relieve the stress. Thomas has been stretched every which way at work, too. He and I seem to be one of the few people who actually work!

There are days when I just want to act stupid and not know how to do anything. Basically, I want to have a day where I can slack off like others do. It bothers me when I do that. That is the worst part. I added a cashier shift. For 4 hours I stood at a register and rang up customer's items. That, to me, is slacking. I am NOT saying cashiers slack off in any way. It is for me personally.  Just to have a day where there is no drama and I am not running from here to there all day long.

I'm trying to get my mojo back. I must make a doctor's appointment to see what is happening to me. Maybe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or Fibromyalgia?  Not sure. I will update as I go along.