It has been rainy all day today. I will have a hard time this winter as I have become slightly intolerable to the cold.
I spent about 3 hours at the doctor's office this morning as a walk-in. I still have not quite got my mojo back. Just tired, weak, muscular aches/pains, and general feeling of unwell. Among other symptoms.
I have a theory. I feel it is my thyroid. All my symptoms coincide with a slow thyroid. The doctor said it could be a vitamin D deficiency. I gave some blood for a few general tests. Most of the tests will be for my thyroid, vitamin D deficiency, diabetes, and sodium/potassium ratio. There is about 7 tests in all. If they all come back negative, then the doctor will do more specialized tests.
I've spent about three months eating healthier and exercising. The scale showed a 5 pound loss. I'm like, what the hell? I've busted my ass at the gym. I've been retraining my taste buds for healthier foods. Eliminating at least 60% of the crap I put in my body. I've put healthier foods in my body. I know it takes time to completely get rid of all the bad crap that I would normally eat.
I am totally disappointed. I pigged out today. I want to scream and cry. I drink at least a quart of water a day. Sometimes 2 or 3 quarts of water. Shit. There is something wrong. No damn doubt. I'm serious as a damn heart attack about getting better and nothing has budged.
I've just been completely crapped out. If my thyroid test comes back normal, I will be shocked as hell!
Oh, did I mention I have tendonitis in my right elbow and wrist?!?!?! Damnit!
Monday, November 17, 2014
Friday, November 14, 2014
Career Change . . . Possibilities
At my job, we have the choice of opening our career preferences to different areas and advancements. Mine are wide open except for the vision center and pharmacy.
In the past two weeks I've done two different phone interviews for two different positions. One is part time. The other is full time.
The first phone interview I did was for Personnel Coordinator/Support Manager. When I'm not in the personnel office, I am out on the sales floor as a support manager for management and staff. This is full time.
The second phone interview was for accounting. It is part time. I believe I will be out on the floor when I am not in the accounting office.
I have mixed feelings about the whole thing. I feel sorrow and anxiety. I know doors have been opened for me. I am scared to walk through them. I have gotten myself into a groove at work. My OCD has allowed me to get into the groove and some semblance of a set pace.
If I am offered either of these jobs, I will be leaving Mr. Thomas and Mrs. Barbara. My two most favorite people! It almost makes me want to cry I will miss them so much. They are the reason I go to work! Some days are bad and they make it better.
I don't want to do myself a disservice. I have been having anxiety attacks over this whole mess. I just need to think about it and go over everything!
In the past two weeks I've done two different phone interviews for two different positions. One is part time. The other is full time.
The first phone interview I did was for Personnel Coordinator/Support Manager. When I'm not in the personnel office, I am out on the sales floor as a support manager for management and staff. This is full time.
The second phone interview was for accounting. It is part time. I believe I will be out on the floor when I am not in the accounting office.
I have mixed feelings about the whole thing. I feel sorrow and anxiety. I know doors have been opened for me. I am scared to walk through them. I have gotten myself into a groove at work. My OCD has allowed me to get into the groove and some semblance of a set pace.
If I am offered either of these jobs, I will be leaving Mr. Thomas and Mrs. Barbara. My two most favorite people! It almost makes me want to cry I will miss them so much. They are the reason I go to work! Some days are bad and they make it better.
I don't want to do myself a disservice. I have been having anxiety attacks over this whole mess. I just need to think about it and go over everything!
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
Feeling under the weather
It has been almost a month since I posted. A lot and a little has been happening.
I've been working 35 to 40 hours a week. I've also been going to the gym to try to lose weight. I have not been to the gym in over a week. I've lost my motivation. I'm trying to get it back.
Lately, I've been feeling a bit under the weather. A lot of muscular aches, tiredness, sleepiness (lack of sleep), fatigue, and lack of memory - brain usage. It has eased up this week a bit.
There is still a lot of drama at work. All the drama is very draining. I feel drained when I'm at work. It's tiring dealing with so much shit and no way to relieve the stress. Thomas has been stretched every which way at work, too. He and I seem to be one of the few people who actually work!
There are days when I just want to act stupid and not know how to do anything. Basically, I want to have a day where I can slack off like others do. It bothers me when I do that. That is the worst part. I added a cashier shift. For 4 hours I stood at a register and rang up customer's items. That, to me, is slacking. I am NOT saying cashiers slack off in any way. It is for me personally. Just to have a day where there is no drama and I am not running from here to there all day long.
I'm trying to get my mojo back. I must make a doctor's appointment to see what is happening to me. Maybe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or Fibromyalgia? Not sure. I will update as I go along.
I've been working 35 to 40 hours a week. I've also been going to the gym to try to lose weight. I have not been to the gym in over a week. I've lost my motivation. I'm trying to get it back.
Lately, I've been feeling a bit under the weather. A lot of muscular aches, tiredness, sleepiness (lack of sleep), fatigue, and lack of memory - brain usage. It has eased up this week a bit.
There is still a lot of drama at work. All the drama is very draining. I feel drained when I'm at work. It's tiring dealing with so much shit and no way to relieve the stress. Thomas has been stretched every which way at work, too. He and I seem to be one of the few people who actually work!
There are days when I just want to act stupid and not know how to do anything. Basically, I want to have a day where I can slack off like others do. It bothers me when I do that. That is the worst part. I added a cashier shift. For 4 hours I stood at a register and rang up customer's items. That, to me, is slacking. I am NOT saying cashiers slack off in any way. It is for me personally. Just to have a day where there is no drama and I am not running from here to there all day long.
I'm trying to get my mojo back. I must make a doctor's appointment to see what is happening to me. Maybe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or Fibromyalgia? Not sure. I will update as I go along.
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