Long Time Roller Coaster

It has been a long time since I posted a blog.

My apologies.

I've been off my anxiety medication for a few weeks now. My anxiety is relatively stable. I'm surprised that I'm so calm. Although . . . here is it . . . . but, my anger and attitude are on high alert. Not to the point of rage or ever hurting anyone. I'm surprised that my attitude has changed and my anxiety is so low. Oh well. I will continue to see how it goes.

I'm taking an over-the-counter thyroid supplement I got off Ebay.  It seems that it may not be working. Maybe it is. I don't know. I usually take about 5 pills a day. it is supposed to rev up my thyroid and metabolism. I am using it as a weight loss supplement. I don't really feel anything different. I guess it would help if I took it regularly.

Now on to a more talked about subject. Thomas. He is a roller coaster. I feel like he is cool with me one day and not the next. What the hell? All I want to do is chill with him, friends, whatever. He is a major source of my anxiety. Sometimes. I can't deal with this on-again off-again crap.

His son, Jared, is hot! I saw a picture of him on Facebook. Wow! Anyway. Moving on.

I worked third shift last week for three days setting the mods and stocking Halloween! It was fun. It was Ted, Melissa, and I working. We got a lot done. There were times when I felt like shit.I can't handle many days on third shift.

I got into a tiff with one of my co-workers about two weeks ago. I went looking for her to get the keys to help a customer. I could not find her. I paged her. Our manager had her paged. She got pissed and threw a hissy fit out on the sales floor in front of another co-worker and a customer. I was furious. I walked off to cool down. After I cooled off, I went to our manager and explained the situation. I asked to be moved to another department. He told me to think about it over the weekend. I did. I told him I would like to be moved to another department. It has been a week. I talked to Brandon about moving to sporting goods. He said he will talk to the store manager about opening up a position there.

There is too many people in my department and the way we are scheduled sucks. I was by myself for five hours one night. I mean, what the hell? Morale is low and team work is almost non-existent.  I do not want to quit. I will be there six months at the end of September.

Life sucks.