I have always loved to daydream. It has kept me sane during half of my childhood when things were really brutal and hopeless.
I still daydream.
Sometimes daydreaming does put me in a bad mood. Reality checks in and I become saddened that my daydreams are not being fulfilled.
How can my daydreams do this to my emotions? Why do I even bother to daydream when it just depresses the hell out of me?!?!?!?!
I want to fulfill my dreams and I just can't walk the walk. I am constrained and unmotivated. My emotions are the Pandora's Box of my life.
Sometimes I have to ask WTF is wrong with this picture? I just want to scream and pitch a damn tantrum to get it all out in the open. I want it all to hang out and leave. Don't care where it goes! My negative emotions, the sadness, the depression, and the anxiety need to hitch a ride into hell.
I need help to get motivated and charge my batteries. I still want to daydream and be merry. I just need to vent and find my true happy place, where ever that may be.
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