Fathers

Along my journey through this existence, I discovered how much family means to me.

My father has abandoned me too many times over the years. I will still love him and respect him for being my father. I will not bow down to him. As a child, I watched him drink and use drugs just to live. He hurt my mom too much and stayed out too much. I remember as a child sitting on the porch steps waiting for him to come home. I was a child, I did not understand like I do now. I wish I knew then what I know now. I was not empowered as a child. I am as an adult. Most of my family have passed on. I feel cheated out of recognition from my father and his father (my grand father). I can no longer sit here and feel emotional toward this. Communication works for both parties, there is no reason for either of us not to check up on each other. I will not go into the details, but I feel alone in this world as an emotionally empowered person. Love and hate does hurt my soul.