I was on third shift for seven days. Sleep, eat, and
work. That is all I did for seven days straight. My body, mind, and spirit were
out of sync with the atmosphere and from within. My pill regiment was
completely out of whack. I probably gained what few pounds I have lost. I’ve
been moody, bloated, and on the verge of crying. I’ve realized that I can’t
handle this much change.
I’ve posted a tidbit of this blog post on Facebook:
For
seven days straight, I have done three things: eat, sleep, and work. No
sunlight. My body, mind, and spirit are out of sync with the atmosphere and
from within. Today I am able to get back in sync with the world around me. I
saw Ms. Barbara today. She made my day with a smile. I talked to Brandon. He
said to go back to my schedule. I cannot handle the loneliness of that shift. I
did NOT miss the drama of the world on first and second. I have gained a lot of
wisdom over these last few days. My day off was taken away from me. I missed
meeting with one of my best friends!
A bit of wisdom is that my body is a lot older than
my spirit and personality. Only real people can love me for my strengths and
weaknesses. If you can’t, get the hell of my train ride! So much anxiety from
within me that made me cry. I could not stock and zone as much as I wanted to.
I wanted to do the best I could within the time frame of my shift. I just could
not do it all. I take pride in my work and sometimes I take too long to do it.
I have so much wisdom. I need to do some spiritual
healing and get myself together. I hope I can come back a better person for all
of this.
