Anxiety

This will be hard to post. I will anyway cuz I need to say it. Get it out of my head.

So much anxiety has been rushing through me like many tidal waves. I grit my teeth too much. My heart palpitates. All of which makes me cringe. I get anxious when mom comes home. 

I have no car. My neighbor is still "working" on it for . . uuummm . . . . 18 months now. I cannot go anywhere. I struggle with going to the store or just out somewhere. I just don't want to anymore. 

I get angry easily. Over things that probably will not be said or done. Ever. Anxiety. It just lives inside of me. I want to be social. My life is changing and I do not see the few friends I do have. I feel as if they are alienated from me at my my own expense, fault. 

So many things I want to do. I can't. Money, friends, anxiety,  and whatever my mind fears will keep me in my own private darkness. I just feel like the whole world is against me, does not like me. Why? Don't understand.

I can barely make it to the community college to turn in my homework and take any tests. 

Anyway, that is my two cents. Money seems to be the need of the country, yet has absolutely no value whatsoever. You can take that to the bank, people. 

Government Shutdown

First off, I am very opinionated.

Please feel free to respond to any of my comments. We can have a positive discussion.

The Government shutdown was outrageous and stupid. What the hell was Congress thinking? Please! You have no damn excuse for this nonsense.


Boehner needs to keep his damn mouth shut. Mr boehner, you work for us, the American people. If you can't work for us - you're ass is fired! Pack your shit up and leave the premise now!

If anyone else can't get their shit together to work for the American people, your fired! All of you need to leave your own personal agendas at the damn door and take care of us. We elected you. We will fire you! Get it together, Representatives! We need people to work for us, not fiddle with their monkeys and get paid by rich people! Stupid people!

Ok, this new healthcare bill is less than positive. I do not have a choice. Democracy is all about freedom of choice and voice of opinion. Well, you got mine. I guess we have to make decisions to see what works and what doesn't. Well, this is on the downslide to shitville, folks.

Let's talk about federal programs. No death benefits to our veterans?!?!? Oh, you are so fired, I will have you escorted out of the f**king building! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Can I be any more precise? Maybe my face up in yours will make it clearer. My grandfather fought in Vietnam and Korea. You better believe it, I will stand up for those who fought and died as an American in war time. Oh, Medicare and vet benefits will resume. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. We are disgracing our veterans and our elderly. They deserve these benefits. You are way below these citizens to cut these benefits out to our people. WTF?

In the words of Donald Trump in a rage, "You're f**king fired!"

Get off my steps, don't pass go, and do not collect any money. You don't deserve it you maggots!

Been a while since I posted. Lotz of things on my mind I need to vent.

The  economy has caused a lot of shit to implode my mind.

The biggest thing is the government shut down.

What the hell, shitholes? I mean, damn! Greed rules the world.

Anyway, I will collect my thoughts and come back.